every man is an island

Usually I don't feel lonely and I am still thinking about the reason.

賀! 蔡胖再度出國

就是去英國!!

A peaceful moment

Mum is shouting, she says " Fuck you!" to my bro.
Dad is in China, he is fucking someone else, maybe.
Bro is silent, but smashing the door loudly.

I am sitting on my bed, watching out the window, and thinking,

"What the fuck it is? And what a peaceful moment while everything is so unreal!"

Cool Guys Don't Look at Explosions!

MTV Shows

Will Ferrell and Andy Samberg really can sing and JJ Abrams rocks!!

BGM: Follow The Cops Back Home

Heart beat, violently.
Another night, an unexpected ending.

I put on my headphone, lying on my bed,
following the rhythm, trying to calm down.

The ceiling wasn't talking, having a grey face facing on me.

"You are the one always besides me every single night,
and it's you always watch me till the dreams come."

I stared at it, trying to look closer in the dark.
Sometimes the distance would disappear, sometimes not.

The music was still on.
The ceiling was still not responding.

I am still awake.

English Practice

1.obese adj. excessively fat ex: Zric is obese because he eats too much xx.
2.The prancing horse = Ferrari
3.due diligence....still don't understand the meaning
4.eclectic n., adj. selecting what seems best of various styles or ideas
5.real estate n. property consisting of houses and land
6.anti social behaviour
7.peer review=equal review
8.sustain v. we eat to sustain our body.
9.ultimate

Envy! Again!

事情是從小二的plurk開始的，他說"就是明天"然後附了一個youtube影片，起初這篇淹沒在眾多的撲浪裡，週四上完班回家後，閒暇無事把之前的文章看完，看到小倩又附了另一個youtube後說"聽這首哭哭用噴的"，在好奇心驅使下，我聽了A Warm Room，果然，真的會哭阿，不論重複聽多少次。

中間經過很多的轉折，包括打算在離八號剩下5分鐘內趕到7-11買票，找唯寧在博客來線上訂票後來才發現11點就結束，沒買到postrock版的票，演唱會當日下班後驅車趕到the wall買現場票，看到主唱跟團員在小白兔裡閒晃等等......說來很曲折，不過最讓我意外的是，原來幾年前，我就已經聽過他們的演唱會，一樣是在the wall，一樣是臨時買現場票，一樣是跟小二與小倩，不一樣的是蔡胖變成了唯寧，就連暖場團的主唱也是當時的那個穿envy T-shirt害我以為暖場團團名是envy的狂亂主唱......

記憶就是那樣的神奇，忘了團名，卻直覺的知道那位逛小白兔戴帽子的老實臉胖子是主唱，在聽了以前他們的專輯後，明確的知道這首歌我聽過，卻忘了為什麼會去聽這個吵雜不知道在唱什麼的演唱會。當時並沒有特別喜歡，加上被前面的歌迷瘋狂碰撞嚇到，沒想到這次卻愛上了。當時吵死人的吼叫，這次卻能夠在其中流下眼淚，心跳的異常快速，呼吸也變得急促，腦中浮現性愛的畫面，配合著節奏，舞台的白光刺眼，卻讓我想到有人形容高潮時會看到一片空白，我想我得到他了。

"You think you got it, but it's just your delusion!"

"There's nothing different from last time, the only difference is you are not the same you."

"Therefore you cried, silently, for the death of you before and of you coming."






---to memory what we were and what we have done.

So I puked

Sleep too much,
eat too much,

so I puked.

Comic too much,
TV too much,

so I puked.

Dream too much,
love too much,

so I puked.

I told my mum that I puked,
She gave me a plastic bag instead of a pill.
I swallowed the bag and all my puke,
they're not delicious but sweet.

I'm done

Too much for me, I said.
No offense, I would like to say.
Thank you, I'm done.

[See you next someday.]

生日總結

1.第一次看到台股暴漲，有種參與某段歷史的感覺。
2.郭台銘老婆生了女兒，出生日跟時間跟我一樣，後來我爸說他生日跟郭台銘一樣。
3.一個禮拜前收到函的卡片，昨天林以鄉送了我蜂蜜乳酪絲，還有林老師送的巧克力，可是我卻忘了送林老師禮物。
4.海寧送了我一件衣服，姿惠請我吃xx，海雪做了果醬，唯寧小魚送我一隻貓布偶，好想吃奶油蘑菇異大意面阿。
5.小二中午來電祝賀，plurk收到小信，pk，mocah，加上我自己起頭的生日祝賀。
6.Rodrigo說他記得我生日是因為那天是墨西哥的kid's day.
7.還好我最後沒有買5/1的打折九吋蛋糕，因為那樣就不是4/30，而且六吋根本也吃不完...
8.回家爸媽順道載我回家，可是一邊開車一邊歲歲念，為甚麼總是在抱怨呢？！
9.erica說今天因為黃金週，地鐵就沒有遇到自殺的人，也就沒有拿到遲延證明書。
10.繼續鬼吹燈與篤姬。